Today was one of those really, really, really powerfully wonderful days where you just know you are in "Flow". That's one of those terms that gets thrown around a lot, and I always thought it was a little bit eye-roll/woo woo for me, but then I experienced it for the first time, and was like..."oh, well damn. HELLLOOO FLOWWW." It's the most incredible feeling in the world and I highly recommend it. All it takes is a complete nervous breakdown and a year of hardcore solitude and working on yourself, and BOOM! There is the Flow. (I kid, for some people it's probably much easier...or maybe harder? I'm not sure)
Here is what Flow looked like for me today...
I got up and did my morning routine, pulled a few Tarot cards to set the intention for my day, and got The Hermit and The Wheel of Fortune. Really amazing and strong cards, suggesting that my time of solitude and introspection is leading me in the path of my destiny. Cool as shit, right?
I did some work for the day job and it just...flowed. Everything was cool, calls made, messages done. Noticed I was running a little behind for an afternoon appointment, and then that appointment text me and asked to push it back a half hour. Flow. I ran into the cute boy next door TWICE in one day and I said something funny/awkward while we were waiting for the elevator...which is totally on brand for me and made me laugh to myself for the next hour or so.
I was feeling a little bummed about not heading to Chicago this weekend where i would get to see some of my friends from NYC, then one of those friends text me that she would be coming to LA next week, and asked if she could stay with me. Um, yes...Flow on in girl. We also had a great convo about her possibly moving here to LA and I am visualizing the shit outta that for her (and me) :)
I walked out of my building to see one of my favorite Street Artists in the middle of a HUGE mural right across from me. There is a TON of other special meaning to this particular artist for me...a story too long to write up now, but trust me, I will one day. Either way, this huge mural was being created in front of my eyes, and it happened to say "You are a Goddess in a City of Angels" with a pair of angels wings. It was on the side of a building that had been the scene of one of the scariest moments of my breakdown last summer (see previous post) and seeing that there brought tears to my eyes. Talk about some Graffiti Alchemy right there.
I got to my meeting on time and spent a few hours chatting with a really dope mentor and friend in her artist studio space, plotting plans for the future. I ended up deciding to do a 3 month lease of some co-share space in what is a really incredible art and creative space, and I'm so fricking excited. I had taken a healing through movement class there when I was in a particularly dark place, so again...the transmutation of energy felt like some serious Flow was occurring. I released some pain there 6 months ago, and now I will be making art and growing my creativity and dreaming up a new future there. It felt so fitting. My friend posted a story about returning to a place with her boyfriend that had previously been a place of sadness and pain, and having the right person there with her changed the perspective for her. She was able to see the beauty of the place again because it now felt like she had been healed. In a way, that's the same echo of my day today...revisiting these places that I had walked through when I felt so much darkness and fear, and being able to feel light, and happy, and excited about what they represented now. That felt like some genuine ass Flow to me. I could never recount all the ways the Universe and my Angels and Healers and Guides have given me subtle (and some REALLY OBVIOUS) signs over the past year--sometimes it feels unreal because when you are truly in a place of Flow, the unbelievable begins happening all around you. From speaking a giant bean bag chair into existence (true story) to just wanting to cry tears of joy everytime some new image or song or perfectly timed person happens along the path, reminding you that when you let life Flow, and you take each little baby step towards your authentic purpose there is NOTHING that is impossible. Life is so beautiful it makes me want to cry, and I do--frequently. But, I don't hold the tears back anymore...I just let them Flow.
i am beckee.
Lover, Writer, Artist, Curser, Creator, Moonchild, LA Dweller, and Star Gazer on a Quest to Find the Beauty and Love in Everything