So, as I mentioned in an earlier post, I left my corporate job of 15 years (!!!) where I earned a very generous salary and lots of "perks" to truly give this creative dream a shot. It's been just under 90 days since I had my last day on June 23, and I would probably describe these last few months as...STRANGE.
I have spent my entire working life in a structured, corporate, 9-5 environment--even my first job in High School was at a popular ice cream chain--with layers upon layers of management and specific goals and targets, rule books to follow, corporate guidelines, etc. To suddenly switch into "freelancer" mode is an extremely strange feeling. I think these past few months have been an exercise in WHAT exactly this new life looks and feels like. The hardest things for me to reconcile between old life/new life are Structure, When It's OK to Work for Free, Setting My Worth, and Work/Life Balance, so I thought I'd break it down over the next few posts. I'll start with Structure today:
STRUCTURE: Somedays, I have to force myself to shower. There are A LOT of days that it doesn't happen at all. When I used to wake up, it was by alarm, usually around 6:30a, and typically to shower and run out the door, hair still wet and one shoe in my hand headed to a meeting somewhere in the Valley. These days, structured meetings are more rare--the occasional photo shoot with an early start time or meeting with a collaborator pops onto the calendar, but for the most part I am setting the timing and content of my day. WHAT A DREAM! But, also, so different than what I've always known. The parameters of a corporate job, even one as consulting based as my old career, kept me in check in a lot of ways. By Monday I kinda new what the week looked like and could work around it. Now, I think too much restriction would hinder my need for a more creative flow, however I do see the value in having some basic parameters for myself. Less plaster cast, more jello mold. Just something to loosely keep my days, weeks, and projects in check a bit.
I'm still trying to figure out exactly what this looks like, but I think the key is routine with flexibility and forgiveness for myself when things don't quite fit the (jello) mold.
Holiday season is coming, so I will put this into practice and report back in another 90 days!!
i am beckee.
Lover, Writer, Artist, Curser, Creator, Moonchild, LA Dweller, and Star Gazer on a Quest to Find the Beauty and Love in Everything